Why I joined Pruvit as a independent promoter

I have always hated “ME”.

I never felt good enough for anything or anyone.

Before Pruvit .....

I went through daily events in a haze and daze and was just going through the motions.

I married young to someone who I degrade and treat me like I was nothing…

I don’t really know why… Maybe some people out there can relate, and maybe my journey will inspire you and give you hope, because there is better out there.

20 years later I met a remarkable, patient, and caring man. Within 6 months we were married.

After 8 miscarriages and 3 ectopic pregnancies we finally had 3 more children, 1 of which had a serious medical condition. We faced this head on and overcame it, but I had always heard voices saying “your worthless” or “you deserve nothing”,but after another series of challenges they were so loud and controlled me more and more. It was at this point that I hit rock bottom with the attempt 2-3 times to make it end.

I became a cutter as I honestly couldn’t feel pain… I was numb.

I was put into extensive therapy and I was prescribed 3 other medications to help me continue to function.

After all this, I finally let it all out and shared how I was feeling and the sadness I was experiencing. I was diagnosed with PTSD, which all related to a horrible childhood trauma which I had suppressed. This discovery explained why:

- I had become an emotional eater

- I was getting bigger hovering at about 148kg

- I pulled back from my family dynamic

When I avoided what had caused the PTSD and could see it was hurting my Mum, I just had to tell her. I’d kept this secret for way too long. She was my best friend and was trying to protect me. Telling her that I had been abused took a huge weight off my shoulders, but still felt very lost.

Then my Mum got very sick and in 6yrs 9months I lost her. She was my strength, my backbone, and my best friend and she succumbed to a rare disease called MSA.

She was shocked by my secrets ,but she accepted me and didn’t blame me like I was doing to myself. After all none of it was my fault…

I was locked in a state of depression so bad that I never left my house. Never wanted to shower, clean my house, and everything was a struggle. 

After all this, I knew I MUST CHANGE AND FIND ME and create a HEALTHIER HAPPIER ME.

As hard as it was I started to cut a few carbs count calories. I joined a beautiful group of ladies, and started to change my life a little bit each day. One day when I was getting up off the ground at an exercise event and bang snapped my vastus lateral tendon (so rare that mainly weightlifters do it). I guess I was a weightlifter being so big ☹. So knew I had to make big big changes once it was repaired. I knew this injury and having knees that required surgery from carrying around so much weight would be a challenge, but I was ready for it. 

I joined a gym haha took it slow… but started to move but still had this cloud of fog and low energy. I was still struggling to get out of bed, dealing with insomnia, and having arvo sleeps.

I then started boxing and met this coach who I was drawn to and insulted by at the same time. I was envious of her energy and intrigued by her bubbly attitude. 

I saw her having some pretty pink drink and I asked the question “What is that stuff you drink?”. Her response was short and she shared a video with me. I watched it, ordered, it and BOOM