This Is Not About Me

Staying the same wasn't an option anymore, so i decided to change. I was struggling feeling depressed, feeling alone, feeling rejected and going through unknown physically chronic pain. I've looked for love in the wrong places. I prayed and prayed for a big change and God blessed me with a new place. I found a new job, a new home, a new family that loves me and I am in tears saying this because I am truly at peace. I still struggle and I am using this depression to help others. Someone told me on facebook use your depression to encourage others and help others.

I found something that is beneficial to my health and my pains in my body in the physical and now taking shakes which control my hunger and daily vitamins. I used to be depressed trying to find ways of preoccupying myself and so I joined a business to help others. I'm not here to recruit, this is not about making $200K a month and owning a house with 10 bathrooms, and 5 exotic looking cars. My main goal is to help others as best as I can and I'm using this depression to help others. If people don't support me in this endeavor I'm ok with that. I live alone and started using products which keep my dishes super clean and my house super clean. I started this business afraid to share and not knowing how to share and most of all I am saving super dollars which is a BIG blessing.

Spiritually I am honoring God Better. Yes i have struggled, Yes I have made mistakes, and I am not perfect. I also have not dated in life. I am 38 and I can say that God has fearfully and wonderfully made me for who I am. I am no longer a curse to hell, I am a blessing in the kingdom of the God. I I cannot tell you How God Loves me more even when I felt rejected. I cannot tell you how God has blessed me with the gifts of playing music in his kingdom to open myself even when I have hard time opening myself verbally. I Love helping others, even if I get pushed back I will pray for you because I still care behind closed doors. Even though I am alone in this physical natural world I am not completely alone because God is watching over me.

P.S. this post came from the bottom of my heart. I will never go outside of God's will for my life which is playing music